Knowing me, Knowing you...

So this is the first blog that i've written on here. It's nothing special..it's just about me. Little old me.. Kimberley Jade Burrows. There are many things that make me who i am... Music, drama, performance, Words, Andover - as sad as it is, i call it home and i always will do; experiences and most of all-people.
Now as my name suggests, i don't really see myself like any of the others...like all the rest of the 18 years olds who have grown up on the crime dotted estate that i have. I don't find enjoyment from getting so drunk i throw it up or piss it against a wall, i don't wish to spend my time sat in a park making a twat of myself, nor do i wish at this point in my life or anytime in the near future to fill my body with god knows what just because my mates are doing it. Now don't get me wrong, i like to have a good time. I have a drink, sometimes i have too many but i know that the people i am sharing these drinks with, the people with whom i will laugh about it afterwards are true friends who mean so much to me..and who are probably doing exactly the same.
I wish to do so much with my life. i wish to prove everybody wrong that stereotypes can be broken, that there are no boundaries..or at least that there should be no boundaries.
2009 has just become and i think it could either be one of the best years i'm going to have or it could destroy me. I am in my second year at college and working no where near as hard as i should be. I have this great ability i discovered recently to make excuses, to put things off until tomorow or to jsut forget about everything completley. I'm dyslexic and have OCD. I also show signs of being aspergers and its no secret that my health hasnt been the best so when i'm feeling the pressure i just hide, run away, act like everythings fine even if i'm breaking down inside. I don't ask for help because i don't deserve it. If it's given i take it... sometimes. I used to feel ashamed of being who i am, but now thanks to some amazing friends i finally also havethis ability to slowly accept bit by bit the person i am turning into.
I think you should take every chance. Never say no to once in the lifetime chances..because seriously time is precious..so is life. And well yea i know its cliche but to be honest i can say it. I've been at the point that i nearly ceased to exsist. I was ill and spent alot of time in hospital being treated for severe organ failure and poisoning. 24 HOURS AWAY FROM DEATH... its scary.. really scary...
My family and friends mean a lot to me. I met Anna when i was 5 and we've been through alot together. We remain the best of friends and know that each other is there even though we're in seperate Colleges. We'll always be each others strength. NICOLE So the girls got a ladder fetish.. bring on the A-frames hmm thats sexy.. '' i only want him coz he's gay/a virgin!'' -- and for the both of you... It's peanut butter Jelly Time!! siobhan i write on the bottom of her shoes and she still likes me =) we sing in lessons and write crazy poems, mates for life.. kirsty pub time, coffee time, chat time.. you rock girl... sophie myspace hero.. you are actually my rock.. i know that i can turn to you no matter what.. Bev.. so yar, we met years ago at that crazy singy song institution otherwise known as brownies...and then we remet last year at college..and by jove do we have some laughs and some major caffine input.. lmao...
Tom - you're just a little bit special to me.. We have so many memories from such a short time together... we have our own song and we dance like idiots to Go vibrations, we sit in the pub drinking Coke and eating food that tastes like sex. We listen to dodgy music and we find innuendos in everything. We go to ASDA for breakfast and i make you bad tea in the teapot. We have roadtrips to anywhere and we comment on excessive parcan use way too much. We share LX tape and a strange love for all things techie. We have our shopping trips and our weird conversations.. But then we have those serious conversations, Those little heart to hearts, you know the ones i mean, and you make me see sense.. You make me make sense of all the little things in life that make me want to swear and you make me laugh at those things that i have no control over. I would trust you with my life..in fact i do trust you with my life...and heres to so many more.
There's absent friends as well.. Heather, steph, tim, josh...all of whom are missed every single day.. xxx
My family are pretty special to me as well. I live with my dad and have done since i was two and my mother decided she couldnt cope anymore or at least just didn't want to know anymore and walked away to be with the man she's now married. My dad means the world to me no matter how much i moan about him. My grandad is amazing. so wise and so clever..so loving and so giving. My gran passed away nearly 10 years ago and i miss her every day... but she taught me many things that will live on in me.. My brothers and sisters..well i don't even know what to say lol.
So well thats me..summed up in a blog... doesn't say much does it? I'm sure i'll rant about a few things in more depth..sorry about that...