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You were meant to be the one to stick by me through all of this and now even you're going to abandon me... you told me it was all worth it, that i should stick at it, that i should carry on, that there was a point to all this shit.. you were the point.. now you're leaving me too.... why do things have to change? why? you've completly messed my brain and now im wondering if i should stick around anymore...

i never stopped loving you...

You will always be the one i love, the one i want, the one i need, the one i long for. You will always be the one that gives me a reason to get up in the morning, a reason to go on, a reason to be me, a reason to live. You will always be the one i adore, the one that makes me go weak at the knees, the one that makes my heartrace, the one that makes me want to tell everyone about you...
You will always be the one that broke my heart, the one that made me cry, the one that made me question what its all about, the one that made me wonder if its all worth it. You will always be the one that makes me doubt my strength to go on, the one that makes me look twice before i leave the house, the one that makes me hate myself....
You will always be the one i will never stop loving, never stop hating, never stop needing, never stop wanting, never forget.

I may not be...

I may not be the perfect person, i may not tick every box, i may not fill every criteria, i may not be your idea of perfection or even anywhere near but i am the person i am and i will not change that for you. I will not like things i dont, i will not do things i dont want to, or go where i dont want to. i have my flaws, but i accept them and know i have them, i try to keep them in a little box, deep inside hidden away so that you don't see them; its not my fault sometimes they just come out. But you know you have your flaws too, if only you were brave enough to look at yourself from the outside, and to accept and recognise those flaws...
I may not be the perfect person, i dont claim to be, i dont even try to be... i just try to be me. I'm sorry if thats not what you wanted.