This isn't Hollywood, it's just a small town...

Say you're sorry

That face of an angel comes out

Just when you need it to

As I pace back and forth all this time

'Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on,

The days drag onStupid girl

I should have known,

I should have known

That I'm not a princess

This ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood,

This is a small

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now its too late for you and your White Horse,

To come around.

Baby I was naíve,

Got lost in your eyes

I never really had a chance

,I had so many dreams

about you and me.

Happy endings

Now I know

I'm not a princess

This ain't a fairytale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood,

This is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now its too late for you and your White Horse,

To come around.

And there you are on your knees

Begging for forgiveness,

Begging for me

Just like I always wanted,

But I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess

This ain't our fairytale

I'm gonna find someone, someday

Who might actually treat me well.

This is a big world,

That was a small town

There in my rear view mirror,

Disappearing now.

And it's too late for you and your White Horse

Now its too late for you and your White Horse

To catch me now.

Oh whoa whoa whoa-oh

Try and catch me now

OhIt's too late

To catch me now.

my promise to you

I could be your favorite blue jeans

With the holes in the knees

In the bottom of the top drawer

I could be your little beauty queen

Just a little outta reach

Or the girl living next door

I'll be your angel giving up her wings

If that's what you need

I'd give everything to be your anything

This is my promise to you. I will always love you, need you and stand by you. Whatever happens, wherever our paths take us, however many hurdles we have to overcome, i will always be yours. You mean more than the world to me...

Forever and beyond...

XX

The plan....

So everythings set for the future, well the next three years at least... Maybe a little too set. I got offered two places at two uni's. The first allowed me to combine two of my greatest loves, Drama Performance and Stage Management. Nobody thought that one was a good idea. The uni's reputation wasn't as good as it could be, the course wouldn't get me the career i want or at least i think i want and the location was, well less than ideal, 35 minuets from home...Too close for a fresh start so they say... im not sure i agree... The second offered one of the highest accreditted courses in the country at one of the most desirable uni's in the country. It would allow and aid me get the job i want and be the best start for the future. 2.3O hours from home, far enough to start again, to re-establish myself yet close enough to know i'm not too far away, plus it gave the chance to spend another 3 years with Tom, who means more than the world to me...Everybody seemed to like this one...
However, the first meant i was in my comfort zone, the place i work best. It meant i could be there for those near to me when i need to be, when times require it, it meant i could achieve things yet not feel like i've missed out on so much. The second has ripped me out of everything i know, turned it all on its head, thrown it around and put it back upside down.
Hmm guess which one i took? The second,,, Like a fool im starting to believe... Change scares me, really scares me. Its always been that way...It will always be that way. Change in my world is unecessary. Yet something else that has always been in my life is the desire to please, the desire to do what others want and follow to the word what they say. So with all these people telling me whats best for me, i had to listen.. i had to do it, i had to choose the second one.. Doesn't matter about me, its just my three years.. Don't get me wrong, im not blamiing anyone but myself. Me and my rubbishness and my crapness and my inabililty to do anything for myself especially thinking.
I'm scared of what the future holds, im scared of the changes about to happen in my life, im scared of being alone, im scared of leaving so many behing, im scared of... Im scared of it all.. yet theres no way out...

''Drink up and Dance on love, thats all there is to do''

Too many thoughts, too little time...

I guess you never know what you actually have, or at least you never appreciate it... You always want something else, something better, something new... Chances are though you'll never get it. Life's a little like that,, makes you dream, makes you want the stars, the moon and the whole damn universe, gives you a little bit of it, just a little - enough to make things great but not enough to last forever and then it all crashes right down around you and takes you to the ground with it. And let me tell you something.. It hurts. It really hurts. It really really hurts.
Well life, i hate to say it, but i think its time to fight back. I'm gonna take that little bit of happiness, that little piece i long for and im gonna hold tight, im never gonna give it back, never gonna let it go, never gonna lend it out or give it to anyone else, never gonna trust anyone to hold it.. its mine...Selfish i know but why shouldn't i?