confessions-of-the-youth-outcast

I guess my blogging up to this point has been pretty crappy, just litte bits here and there so i thought i'd write a proper blog... a proper blog on how i'm feeling and whats going through my head, if i can understand it that is... And whats more i make no apology for not holdin back...
I feel right now that i don' t mean anything to anybody...anybody at all... I think at one point i used to, maybe, just the once i meant something to at least one person...but its quite clear that actually i don't. I feel so insignifcant in everything...
Everyday is a battle to get out of bed, to get in the shower and to go and face the world. Given the chance i'd hide away... I'm told i have to do, i'm told i'll never be anything if i don't but where i am right now all that means nothing to me...
Where's all the fun gone in life? I miss it... i really do miss it... i miss being able to wake up in the morning and just smile simply for the fact that i'm alive... I miss being able to laugh just because it makes me feel good....
Where's all the memories gone? There still there, just hidden amongst a thousand other thoughts. A thousand other thoughts i don't understand...
Emotions... Emotions don't seem to mean a thing...they've all rolled into one... and lets be honest they all suck right now...
..Sorry...