confessions-of-the-youth-outcast

I believed every word you said, thought you really meant it, thought that when you said things wouldn't have to change that you were telling the truth, that everything could go on as it had before... but i can see quite clearly now you were lying. maybe you didnt mean it, maybe you dont even realise but slowly but surely youre slipping through my fingers, im losing you.... I guess its not that that i cant deal with, its not the fact that your not the person you once were, its not even the fact that im losing you to someone you dont even truly know.. i think its the fact that you could lie, i think its the fact that youre hurting me whilst you do it, the fact that i didnt expect it because once upon a time i believed every word you said.. i ask myself now why i feel in love with you, i ask myself why i settled with second best, to call myself youre 'friend' Funny isnt how, now i look back, you never called me that back... you never needed me like i needed you, you never wanted me like i wanted you, you never even really seemed to realise i exsist... yet then again i think isnt funny how its taken me so long to realise, and though i see its all true, we pretty much were living i lie, i miss you and its killing me to lose you bit by bit... if youre going to go, id rather you just went. ok so it might make things arkward but im sure we can work round that by... say never being in the same room again, never talking, i'll take down all your pictures, erase every message, delete your number, block you out and pretend you were never in my life.. maybe then, maybe just maybe i might move on with my life instead of spending every second hurting..