confessions-of-the-youth-outcast

i guess my posts up until now have all been pretty depressing so i thought i'd write a more positive one.... i am finally on the meds i need to make me better. its a long, uphill journey but i'm told the view from the top is amazing...one day i believe i will see this...

i have been unwell, in a physical and mental sense of the word and then i have lived in fear of this. Everything has been a battle, each day just rolling into the next, no sense of time, no sense of direction. Slowly but surely this will return, i know it will, all i have to do is have a little patience with myself...which is easier said than done. when everyone is so harsh to you, so hard on you you think thats the only way your able to function..if your criticised, if your put down, if your made to feel like you have to prove you not the nothingness they believe you are.

I've had two trips to hospital recently, not fun but he's stuck by me throughout it and for that i will always be grateful..he could have run and hid but he didn't.

i see now the power of people and the difference they can make, so many people have got me through these last few weeks when it would have been so easy to give up and just close the door and disappear. but i didnt..and now im gonna dig deep and find the fight from somewhere....i have to keep going.